So six weeks ago I started Zoloft for my depression (50mg/day, what they started me on). I’ve lost 10lbs in five weeks just because I’m no longer eating ALL day because of my depression! YAY! I’ve been trying to start doing yoga too (since one of our friends/ex-roommates came over and cleaned and vacuumed our house lol) but I’m only able to get about six minutes in before my toddler gets bored and starts climbing on me. lol But since I have some energy and motivation now I’ve been keeping up on the housework which probably helps. As soon as I’m done writing this I’m gonna go tidy up…the tiny human is out with her aunt, which is nice…normally tidying up with her in the house is like trying to brush your teeth while eating Oreos. Lol
I can tell a difference in my body…I haven’t gone down in clothes size yet, but it’s getting there. My face is slightly thinner, my stomach is not hanging down so far, and my boobs are a little looser. Not so fond of the boob thing (WHY do I lose in my boobs before my legs?!), but whatever. I’m just glad to finally be losing weight!! It was SOOO frustrating last year when I was working out nearly every day and trying to eat as healthy as I could and I was barely losing anything.
Anyway. Gotta go clean up fast before she gets home!
I need to fucking lose this shit. It’s been a year since I took weight/measurements. I don’t think I’ve gained (my clothes still fit) but I haven’t lost either. I fucking hate being fat but I’m ask lazy as shit. I feel like a fucking elephant. I hate the way my clothes look on me. My friend is like 120lb, probably less, so tiny. My lowest adult weight was 128. I want to just stop eating but then I get crabby as fuck. So depressed lately. I hate my life. I’m always tired. I’ve hardly cooked in the last year cuz of my clingy daughter, but I’m gonna TRY to cook more since she’s older.
Got an appointment for a tattoo next week tho so yay…
I haven’t been on tumblr in a while. It makes me feel guilty because I’m not actively doing anything to lose weight. Well, what I ate today:
A cup of coffee with cocoa and creamer
Two raspberry chocolates
Two Russel Stover chocolates
A bunch of sunflower seeds
12 pieces of sushi
Arizona green tea
I promise, when my food stamps get refilled I’m gonna go get some good healthy stuff to eat. My husband just buys crap. Lol I’ve been stuck at the same weight too. I want I get my thyroid checked out but I’m too poor to go to the dr. (When I say I’m too poor…I mean right now our house and utilities cost more than we are making. Yeah, we’re gonna remedy that.)
I think I’m slipping back into the habits I had as a teen that I know are unhealthy but I feel it’s all I can do. There’s no way I’m gonna lose all this by July…or that I could even buy myself those rewards if I made the goals…
Plus I started online classes…
Hi guys I’m obsessed with this shit lately because I don’t want anyone to have unhappy, unsupported boobs like I did. Even if you think your boobs and bras are fine, try it. It will make a big difference in comfort, support, and shape, even if you have small boobs or big boobs. A proper fitting…
THE best bra-fitting guide ever. I want to print this and take it to the store with me.
OK, so long time no post.
I haven’t been working out, but I’ve been more active than in the past…I did a few photoshoots in the park a couple weeks ago. I also have a job!!! At a Sears portrait studio. I showed them my photos and they hired me within 24 hours of me applying. I’m a better photographer than the manager who is training me. WIN. xD Anyway, that means I’m also up and on my feet more, so yay there.
I’ve also been drinking healthy(ish) smoothies every day…1 cup spinach (loosely packed), about 1 or 1.5 cups strawberries (plus a small handful of any other fruit that’s in the fridge), 1 cup milk, and honey to taste (about 2 tblsp). I’ve had one every day for the last two weeks except yesterday. lol
Anyway…not much else weight-related going on. I haven’t gained still, so that’s good. Losing would be better though. In general though I’m feeling more positive about myself and life and being comfortable with myself so that’s good too.
this is hilarious i dont give a fuck
guys boobs lol
haha, that last one is hilarious because the original girl looks like 12
OH THE LULZ
Lmao I love the lava shooting boobs!
—Lao Tzu (via artcomingoutofmyfists)
Uhm…actually…depression and anxiety can be caused by the way your brain is wired and therefore not be your fault at all. It’s a nice quote…but as someone who suffers from depression and mild anxiety, I know better! Some people yes, probably are depressed because they’re living in the past…but not all!